Letter To My Daughter That She Never Got To Read When She Demanded That I Allow Her To Pierce Her Tongue

June 23, 2005

Dear Kristy,

I thought that a letter would better explain my feelings about the conversation that just took place about the tongue piercing. I told you that I would think about it, and I did, and when I gave you the reasons, you just wanted to hang up.

The tongue piercing has nothing to do with wanting to get to know you as you, or you wanting to get to know me as me. I have not seen you except for eleven minutes since December, and if I went with you to get your tongue pierced, I was allowed a visitation with you. I felt manipulated. If I said yes, you would be my buddy. If I said no, I will never see you. This is how I laid out my decision. These were my thoughts when I took the time to decide because I love you. I really did think of letting you do it, but I had to stand by my own belief’s, and make the proper decision which I as your mother felt was best. I don’t want a dishonest relationship with you. If my decisions happen to make you angry, I don’t want to be abused by you for standing up for my own beliefs. That was what happened in the past. By writing this letter to you, and going by the decision of my own heart, I believe that is best for our relationship. I set boundaries now. Sometimes love is tough love. One day when you have your own child, you will understand that. I put the reasons for letting you get it done first that I thought about, and the no reasons second. Like I said, no matter how hard the truth is. The truth is the truth, and one thing that you do know about me, is that I live by truth and honesty. For me to against my own belief I can’t do. What you choose to do with my decision is your own free will. I love you still the very same. I really do love you. I think that you may see that when I am finished with the yes and no list.

Tongue Piercing

Yes:
I would get to see you, and that I wanted very much. So much that I was willing to compromise all things that I saw right.
I wanted you to have what you wanted, so you knew that I accepted you unconditionally.
If I let you do this, I hoped that you may have really have wanted to come home.
No:
I felt that I would again have no say so in our relationship if I said yes.
It was a power play.
I really hate tongue rings.
I was worried about infection even if it was done right. I talked with several people in the past who had it done, and two regretted it, and two liked it. So, I thought about what my own tongue getting pierced with both sides of the story, and how I would feel to make my decision, and I came up with no.
I thought about the lies, the deceit, and the perjury, that you have committed, and what we have truly gone through because of it. You are not even sorry, nor are you willing to admit what you and others have done. To know me, is to know what we have been through because of it if you are going to use manipulative techniques to get something done that you want.
The lies, the deceit, and the perjury, was so bold that I still believe that you have been threatened by people in positions of power, and that if you do admit to everything, you were threatened that something would happen to someone close to you. Because of the threats, the drive by shooting attempt, and other things that I know to be hard cold facts, I couldn’t say yes if the truth had not come out.
I believe that it is a manipulation done with the aide of an educated Social Worker to make me look unreasonable in the eyes of the court again, when I am not unreasonable.
If I had said yes, I would end up being manipulated into a life of lies, and I would have to everything that you demanded. The officials would have won.
No matter how safe and happy I hear you say you are. I believe that you are not. I believe that you have been forced to behave this way. There is no changing my mind because of hard cold facts that I am aware of.
I believe that instead of sticking with the plan of just a hug, or a movie, and being slapped in the face with a decision like this, and me even having to talk about these things because I didn’t want to, and my having to defend my reasons. This was another attempt by you and Social Workers and all of the others involved to make me react unreasonably because you are so close to my heart. If you were not close to my heart, I would have never stayed in Oroville while I put up with death threats and proven attempts, and the deaths of some people I know because of the original lies, deceit, and manipulation. To let you have the tongue ring would be dishonoring my friend’s lives that have been lost, and the torture and threats that they have gone through because they stood up for the truth also. This was the biggest factor in my decision. Like I said, there is a lot that you don’t know about, and shouldn’t have to know about. The arrangement to ask for a tongue ring, and not just a hug or a movie, I consider direct child abuse to you by those in authority because I am forced to talk about this with you now instead of in a therapy situation.
This piercing is a felony in the State of California. I have to agree with the law because to make a decision at your age that is permanent and disfiguring, you may regret when you go through some known mental changes that will happen with you in the next couple of years. You are you now, but two years from now, you may be very different. I do not want to be a part of your possible regrets in the future.
I believe that you are mentally ill, and to make such a decision while I believe that you are mentally ill, I cannot abide by and say yes.

In conclusion, I have more reasons on the no side of my list than I do on the yes side of my list, and I had to go with a rational thought out decision. I could not go only with my intense desire and want to give you what you want, so my dear child would want to come home, and I could hold you in my arms again. If I had said yes, and you did come home, our relationship would have been the same. I am looking for change in our relationship. Only honesty and truth can abide in a real relationship. It is a court order that I listen to your allegations that I know for a fact are fabricated. Don’t you think that it is your turn to listen to the feelings of your mother, and the facts of what your lies, deceit, and manipulations have put me through? To not have you tell the truth about your actions, I believe is child abuse. It is not making you a viable member of Society, and for me, I remember your values that were sometimes better than my own. Where did those values go when this is continued? I believe that it allows people to be perpetrated against. This means I love you for you. What other parents would want their child home after what you and others have done? I will not hold it against you, and I really do want to drop the past, but you will have to know that the events that have taken place in our lives will forever be engraved in my heart. I just want you home, and I just want to have some good times together Kristy. You asking me to get your tongue pierced under these circumstances is as ridiculous as my expecting you to tell the truth at this moment because of some of the factors I listed above in my no answers.

Now that the nasty part is over, here are some of my goals in my own life, and things that are going on with me.

I have a job as a reporter, and I am excited.
I have several close friends that are true friends. I can’t ever be thankful enough for them being in my life.
I now have documentation about my physical health, and the help I will receive because of that. That is the greatest event.
I have plans in the future of writing, and art that have now come into the realm of not just a dream. I am so looking forward to creating, and of you being a part of that.
I enjoy every moment that I look at dovey wovey, and the reasons you gave her to me, and smile.

Lets plan to go to a movie, or just get a hug from each other like we planned before. Let me know. I love you dearly with all of my heart.

Love, Mom

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http://www.thepetitionsite.com/takeaction/106345324?ltl=1127506561

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/takeaction/387659193?ltl=1127508817

FOSTER MOTHER

Item #0006
CAROLYN MCMILLAN
CAROLYN MCMILLAN is the current Foster Parent of XXXXXX XXXX XXXXX, and several other minor females. MCMILLAN is a close personal friend of both JANICE KONNO, and LANA WICKHAM. MCMILLAN has perjured herself numerous times concerning not only the circumstances that XXXXX is under, but also numerous facts concerning XXXXX herself. MCMILLAN has coerced, manipulated, enticed, and otherwise influenced XXXXX to conform to MCMILLANS personal goals and objectives.
It has been documented, on numerous occasions, by numerous persons, that MCMILLAN has been observed purchasing illegal drugs from local persons who participate in this type of business, commonly known as Dope Dealers. MCMILLAN has also been observed purchasing large quantities of alcoholic beverages from local stores, including an incident where, immediately prior to Memorial Day Weekend, 2005, the purchase of several cases of Budweiser beer, and an assortment of wine coolers, and other alcoholic beverages.
It has also been documented that MCMILLAN has charged numerous males the sum of five dollars, purportedly to cover fuel costs, in order for these males to engage in sexual intercourse with XXXXXX XXXXX, in the foster home, and upon occasion, to actually spend the night in XXXXX’S bed with her. An incident of note concerning the Pandering and Prostitution of XXXXX by MCMILLAN, in the incident concerning XXXXXX XXXXXXXXXX. In this particular incident, MCMILLAN not only arranged that XXXXXXXXXX have sex with, and spend the night in bed with XXXXX, but also that XXXXX would leave the State of California the following day with XXXXXXXXXX, and spend the night with XXXXX in a motel in Reno, Nevada.
MCMILLAN has committed numerous mutilations and changes to XXXXX’S appearance, which is not only completely illegal, but the intention for this is a conspiratory offense. MCMILLAN has arranged that XXXXX cut and dye her hair, in attempts to mask the fact that XXXXX is being supplied drugs and alcohol by MCMILLAN. MCMILLAN is under the mistaken misconception that the dye that she purchases for LOPEZ will disable the ability of authorities to perform a hair test for illegal drugs on XXXXX.
There is also documentation concerning the fact that CAROLYN MCMILLAN’S husband, ROBERT (aka ROY) MCMILLAN, has molested, raped, and otherwise sexually abused numerous female minors placed in the care of the MCMILLANS. There have been three female witnesses who have stated and testified that they were forced into Prostitution by the MCMILLANS, and that if they objected at any time to having sex with any of the clients that CAROLYN MCMILLAN had arranged to have sexual intercourse with them, that they would be raped, and forced into sexual acts with ROBERT (aka ROY) MCMILLAN. There are also witnesses to the fact that, on more than one occasion, that the MCMILLANS have had a male placed in their care by SOCIAL WORKERS from BUTTE COUNTY CHILDREN’S SERVICES, and BUTTE COUNTY FOSTER CARE, and that these male teens have not only been allowed to have sexual intercourse with any of the females placed in their care that he wished, but also that the male was supplied with all of the drugs and alcohol that he wanted, to "keep him quiet" about being illegally placed in this female only FOSTER HOME.
MCMILLAN continues to exert some sort of control over XXXXX, and to convince her not to return to her home, and to maintain animosity toward her parents. MCMILLAN is very aware that XXXXX has mental disorders, and is susceptible to manipulation by persons in authority. Also, the fact that MCMILLAN is the only source for XXXXX to get illegal drugs and alcohol, and that this type of activity will not be allowed if she were to return home, are mitigating factors in this case.

Our Daughter

Note : although this is the actual text document from the Federal case, it has been edited for this public posting. The names of all involved minors have been censored to comply with Federal regulations concerning this. However, the names of the adults, agencies, and organizations are included.
Item #0017
XXXXXX XXXX XXXXX
XXXXXX XXXX XXXXX did commit numerous felonious, malicious, intentional, and premeditated acts in the fabrication, instigation, and continuance of BUTTE COUNTY Case #J-31659, and all other associated cases. It has been determined, ascertained, discovered, and documented as to the intentions and criminal actions of XXXXX in this case.
XXXXXX XXXX XXXXX did state and threaten, to at least five separate witnesses her intentions to fabricate and falsify evidence against WESLEY ELVIS PEDEN, to place that evidence upon his computer, and to arrange with numerous persons to create a fraudulent and illegal case against PEDEN, in order to get him removed from the home. The exact statements were in the line of that she was going to "set Wes Up", that she was going to accomplish this "Even if I have to do something illegal", and that she had hacked into the computer belonging to PEDEN, and had "added, deleted, changed, and downloaded" files and folders to his computer.
It is documented that she resented PEDEN because he opposed her objectives, and imposed rules and restrictions on her. This included XXXXX being restricted from certain activities, after there had been incidents which were illegal, and irrational. The only things that XXXXX was restricted from in her home, was participation in sex, or the use of drugs or alcohol. As XXXXX had participated in all of these secretly, in the home of ANDREA BRAZELL, and XXXXXX XXXXXXX, even though this had been done in secrecy, PEDEN suspected unacceptable activity in these locations, and XXXXX was restricted in her contact. Although XXXXX had participated in sexual acts, smoking cigarettes, and Marijuana, in the home of XXXXXXX, this was kept from PEDEN. However, when PEDEN caught XXXXX on a couch in the home of XXXXXXX, when she did not answer his call, sitting close to three male minors, who had their hands on XXXXX, she was not allowed to enter that residence again. PEDEN would allow XXXXXto walk to the residence, which was within sight of PEDEN’S home, and ask XXXXXXXto come to her house, she was not allowed to enter the residence. PEDEN often reassured XXXXX that he would not stop her from seeing XXXXXXX, as he considered XXXXXXX to be one of the few real friends that XXXXX had, but that there would be certain restrictions to eliminate any impropriety committed against XXXXX against her will, which was completely unacceptable to PEDEN and MULASKEY, as XXXXX’S parents. As XXXXX adamantly defended that the incident where she had been caught on the couch with the boys was completely innocent on her part, and that she was completely unaware of their actions toward her, PEDEN placed this restriction on his Daughter because it was thought she was not mentally capable of understanding the danger this posed. XXXXX has a long and documented Mental Health History.
XXXXX used PEDEN’S computer at least four hours each day, until PEDEN built one for her, which was then attached to the home network that PEDEN and MULASKEY had in their home. On several occasions, PEDEN discovered files on his computer that were unknown to him, and XXXXX informed him that she had accidentally downloaded that particular file to his computer, instead of her own. Some of these files, although labeled as music videos from bands that XXXXX liked, when PEDEN checked the files with his media player, they turned out to be pornographic video clips. As people on the internet sometimes intentionally mislabel files, these were never mentioned to XXXXX by PEDEN, as he believed this is what had happened.
It is documented that XXXXX conspired with others to "set Wes up", and to gain her freedom from any rules or restrictions that her parents had placed on her. These conspirators are as follows, but not limited to, these persons : KRYSTINE FREDRICK, ANDREA BRAZELL, XXXXXX XXXXXXX, JOSH ANSPACH, XXXXXX XXXXXXXX, XXXXXXX XXXXXXXX, DENISE LAVENDERXXXXXX XXXXXXXXXX, SOCIAL WORKERS JANICE KONNO, LANA WICKHAM, and currently, JULIE MARQUARD, the DEPUTIES of RECORD December 17th, 2004, STEVE ORSILLO, THE FATHERS HOUSE CHURCH AND STAFF, XXXXXXX XXXXXXX, Students from Challenge Charter High School XXXX, XXXXXXX, XXXXXXX, XXXXXX, XXXXXX, XXXX, and XXXX XXXXXXX, the YOUTH GROUP of the FATHERS HOUSE CHURCH, the members of the LAS PLUMAS/OROVILLE HIGH SCHOOL DRUMLINE AND MARCHING BAND, VICTORIA SUE FLOYD, and other persons.
XXXXX conspired closely with FREDRICK, BRAZELL, ANSPACH, KONNO, and FLOYD, in the intentional fabrication and falsification of evidence on PEDEN’S computer. XXXXX and FREDRICK also made numerous fictitious and fraudulent calls to authorities and SOCIAL WORKERS, in preparing the groundwork for the fraudulent case they were fabricating.
XXXXX also participated in this conspiracy with the intention of, and act of, adding poisonous toxins to foodstuffs prepared specifically for her Mother, PAMELA ANNE MULASKEY. XXXXX stated that, if she could "get Wes out of the house, she could control her Mom, and do whatever she wanted". MULASKEY was kept in a constantly disabled condition by the fact that XXXXX, FREDRICK, BRAZELL, and ANSPACH prepared foodstuffs specifically for MULASKEY, which had a commercially available poison, named Decon, which Contains Arsenic and Strychnine, trace amounts of Methamphetamine, and an as of yet unknown toxin. At one time, when MULASKEY was extremely ill, XXXXX stated to MULASKEY, "why don’t you just go to bed and die Bitch".
XXXXX resented that PEDEN maintained the home, and enforced the rules and restrictions, any time that MULASKEY was ill. XXXXX would frequently intentionally dirty the house, bring animals in from the outside which did not use the litter box, throw trash and debris about the home, dirty dishes and hide them under her bed, and other disruptive activities, and then threaten PEDEN and MULASKEY that she was going to call SOCIAL WORKERS, and have herself removed, and placed in FOSTER CARE, where she could have a good time, and be rewarded for being bad and committing crimes, just like XXXXXX. This reference is to XXXXXX XXXXX, a girl who had abused, and sexually abused XXXXX in the past, who is not mentally stable, and never faced any consequences for her abuses or crimes.
It is documented that XXXXX participated in an incident in the home of ANDREA BRAZELL on October 31st, 2004. Until recently, it was believed that what had occurred that night, was that JOSH ANSPACH, the 21 year old brother of ANDREA BRAZELL, had given KRYSTINE FREDRICK alcohol, and then had sexual intercourse with her. This was the reason that XXXXX and FREDRICK were restricted from going to BRAZELL’S house if ANSPACH was present. Both XXXXX and FREDRICK, and BRAZELL resented what they considered an unwarranted restriction. It was at this time that PEDEN and MULASKEY learned that ANSPACH had recently had sexual intercourse with XXXXXX XXXXXXX, who was 12 years old at the time. It has now been disclosed that XXXXX, FREDRICK, FREDRICK’S 12 year old sister, XXXXXX, and FREDRICK’S 14 year old sister, XXXXXXX, had engaged in a sexual orgy in BRAZELL’S front room, with ANSPACH, and that BRAZELL had taken pictures and video clips of this sexual activity. XXXXX’S intention in taking these pictures was to refute allegations that she was a Lesbian. XXXXX felt that she needed to absolutely refute this, because PEDEN, being a Pastor, had strong views concerning homosexuality. XXXXX wanted to deny her true orientation, which is documented, even though PEDEN made it vary clear that he Loved his Daughter unconditionally, no matter what her orientation might be. It has also been disclosed that BRAZELL not only enticed XXXXX into living in her home, but also used the pictures from that night to reinforce her coercion over XXXXX.
Prior to this pornographic display by XXXXX, she had been involved in a previous incident. When KEN DOTY lived in the house previous to ANDREA BRAZELL, DOTY’S daughter, XXXXX, XXXXXX XXXXX, and XXXXXX XXXXXXX performed in Lesbian acts in the home, while KEN DOTY took pictures of their activity. These pictures were distributed to other juveniles, and were used as blackmail material, to force XXXXX into complying with the will of others, including XXXXXXX XXXXXXX, at Challenge Charter High School, and the Oroville Gymnastics Academy.
XXXXX currently is living in FOSTER CARE, by placement of LANA WICKHAM, which is being maintained by JULIE MARQUARD. MARQUARD has created fraudulent and falsified reports, and recently disclosed the entire contents of a confidential meeting and investigation to XXXXX, and CAROLYN MCMILLAN, the current FOSTER PARENT, in an attempt to allow MCMILLAN to eliminate any evidence of her criminal activities, and to further alienate XXXXX from her family. It is documented that CAROLYN MCMILLAN, her husband ROBERT (aka ROY) MCMILLAN, and one of the FOSTER CHILDREN in the home, who uses MCMILLAN’S last name, coerce, manipulate, arrange, and entice, FOSTER CHILDREN placed in that home, into pandering, prostitution, and pornography, including transporting children across State lines for this purpose. MCMILLAN also supplies the children in that home with illegal drugs and alcohol. The fact that XXXXX has lied, fabricated, denied, perjured herself in court, and other actions to defend MCMILLAN, and remain in the home, indicate that either XXXXX is a voluntary party to the prostitution and pornography, or that she is mentally incapable of understanding that she is being pandered, and that the pornography is being done secretly, from hidden cameras. As a confidential informant has informed us that there is a secret room in the MCMILLANS bedroom, which houses recording equipment for the monitoring of the seven covertly hidden cameras throughout the home, this is possible.
It is documented, and has been related by numerous individuals, witnesses, and confidential informants, that since XXXXX has been placed in the home of MCMILLAN, she has earned an extremely disreputable reputation amongst other students at LAS PLUMAS HIGH SCHOOL, OROVILLE HIGH SCHOOL, and CHALLENGE CHARTER HIGH SCHOOL, and upon individuals in her age group throughout the community. It has been related that XXXXX has had sexual intercourse with a minimum of nine males, including at least three who were eighteen years of age prior to May 1st, 2005, in which case XXXXX was under the age of sixteen. One of these males, referred to as clients by witnesses, is documented to be HIV positive, and has had unprotected sexual intercourse with XXXXX. XXXXX has several nicknames related to her present situation, and descriptive titles also. These consist of "NICKEL", "FIVE BUCK", "MCMILLANS WHORE", and "THE NASTY LITTLE STONER SLUT". These nicknames and titles are derived from occurrences in MCMILLANS home in relation to XXXXX. According to numerous sources, CAROLYN MCMILLAN charges clients, males that she transports to have sex with XXXXX, five dollars, supposedly to cover fuel costs. Hence the references to the number five in her new nicknames. Also, it is documented that XXXXX is being supplied with drugs, including Marijuana, and shares this with others in the smoking area at LAS PLUMAS HIGH SCHOOL. This is where one of the other nicknames is derived. Although XXXXX has a reputation, which only grows more derogatory because of her actions in the MCMILLAN house, she chooses to lie concerning these activities, and remain in the home.
It is documented, through over ten years of treatment, diagnosis, and counseling, that XXXXX suffers from numerous disabling mental illnesses, including Attention Deficit Disorder, Bi-Polar Disorder, Oppositional Defiance Disorder, has a strong propensity as an habitual liar, has sexual issues concerning men with authority over her, and is susceptible to an illness commonly known as Stockholm Syndrome, which was made notable in the case of Patricia Hearst. The counselor of XXXXX for the past four years, Mr James Holloman, Butte County Behavioral Health for Children, has made a diagnosis and determination that XXXXX has become irrational and unreasonable, that she is a danger to herself and others, and that she is in immediate need to be removed from her current influences, and placed in an inpatient facility for proper treatment, and to restore her mental stability.
Since KONNO removed XXXXX from her home, the medication prescribed for XXXXX has been denied, and foreign, illegal drugs and alcohol have been introduced to her, and supplied to her. There is no doubt that the intentional, malicious, and premeditated acts and intentions of XXXXX, in fabricating the fraudulent case against PEDEN, and the attempted murder of her own Mother, PAMELA MULASKEY, by poisoning, are the actions of a person who is either completely unstable mentally, and irrational, and can be manipulated by others, or of a person who has no conscience, and will do whatever they have to, including murder their own Mother, in order to gain their personal objectives.
To date, instead of being restricted in any way, or facing the consequences of her criminal actions, XXXXX is, just as she predicted, being given anything she wants, being allowed to do anything she wants, and is being rewarded instead of punished for her crimes and abuses, just like XXXXXX XXXXX. As XXXXX has already established in the intentional and malicious attack on Mr John Cuny, a teacher at Charter Challenge High School whose class she was failing, all she has to do is create circumstances or suspicions, make false allegations against a man with authority over her, and she can obtain her objectives, no matter what the findings or truth are. XXXXX liked her position in the LPO DRUMLINE, but if she failed Cuny’s class, she would be expelled permanently from the DRUMLINE. So XXXXX, with the help of FREDRICK, made allegations and accusations against Cuny which created such a furor, that the fact she had failed his class was completely lost in the resulting uproar, and she obtained her objective of staying in the LPO DRUMLINE, with the people who were helping her to plan and devise the fraudulent case against PEDEN.